But then 2018 happened, I managed to drag myself out of my depressive hole with the help of some amazing people, the school went finally well, I fell in love – and he loved me back! (That was such a surprise!) The dark cloud I had bearing with me for so many years was just…gone. I still have days when I feel down, I’m still sometimes sad. But…I feel such enormous happiness in the end. I may be rather young, but I still feel like I found my place in life, with some amazing people. For all the better grades, for all the money in the world. I would never trade that for the people I have with me now. Tho… I would love to tell my 11-year-old self that it gets better. It really does!
Absolutely. Right now I’m in the darkest place that I’ve ever been..literally, the only thing going for me is my job, and even that is mildly successful at best. I see no way to make my situation better. No way to get out. I’m at the point where I’ve been considering admitting myself to the hospital because I don’t like where my thoughts have been leading. But at the end of the day, even that would lead me right back to the same situation, only with an assortment of new problems tacked on.