This has to be a super common thing. Even before I saw Truman show I was in 7th grade and thought people were walking around filming me I’ve had friends say the same thing when they were around that age. I should say I don’t think that now but it seems like something maybe everyone goes through and certain people kinda hold on to that idea? I had a friend that suffered this after binging on psychedelics for an extended period of time. He thought he found a way out by driving his SUV into a playground. Luckily it was empty at the time and he spent a while in a psych unit recovering (he was technically correct since he no longer suffers from the delusion).
“Me, me, me, me”. So many people are about “me”. No matter how special you may think you are, you’re just another ant in the colony and once you’re gone only a handful of other insignificant ants that were closest to you will even know that you existed. Once they are gone, the only evidence that you were here at all will be some little ant photographs tucked away in storage somewhere or uploaded to the little ant cloud that no one will remember to access.